I can feel my heart sink down into my stomach.
The tears rolling down my cheeks.
My heart broke in two.
My hands start shaking as you yell into the phone.
Thoughts running through my head, crying as I lay in bed.
Music blasting in my room, as i look at the wall and stair.
I thought you were safe.
From all the fighting and the pain.
I put my trust in you, hoping that things would finally be OK.
I saw the look on her face as I told her.
The look of fear, the feeling of tears.
The look of disbelieve, not being able to handle what she was hearing.
Not understanding all that went wrong.
As my mind is filled with nothing, flashbacks fill my head.
Letting go of all that you have worked so hard for.
I'm not going to cry.
I'm trying to be strong.
I just cant help the tears, i feel as if i have done something wrong.
You were slowly coming back.
But then your whole world came crashing down.
I was finally OK.
Becoming use to having a dad around.
Then you feel apart.
You messed everything up.
You made me cry.
The drugs have won again.
