Talking To My Ceiling

I didn't mean to tear you apart
You just don’t care how far I drop
And our addiction is at a dangerous dose
But I just can’t make it all stop

Do you think that we should reconsider this
This situations getting desperate
You make it easy to come back to you
But It's so hard to keep my feelings seperate

Because I know it’s all my fault
Because I am who you made me
But this guilt is so repetitive
It’s not worth what you made it be

And before i might have been more open
About what i was feeling
And before i might have told you
But now im stuck telling my ceiling

This is my last chance to tell you
I never loved you back
My last chance to tell you what I feel
Your last chance before I attack

Try to understand
I know you're bad at listening
I didn't want to know about you
Becasue then i would know what i was missing

You are a failure, just like me
Never knew when to leave well enough alone
I gave up the chance when I lost him
It is with losing my innocence that I have grown

Still there’s an emptiness
Something hiding deep inside
How helpless I am
Not to know how to subside
What I feel…

You were right
When you said that I was wrong
But it was worth it to see you
Begging on your knees where you belong

That was then, and this is now
I don’t know what to do
There’s still a space I tend to hide
Because I still wanted you

So in other words, you were
Exactly what I was looking for
You are the only reason I remembered
But I guess it doesn’t matter anymore

I’ve known you for too long
And sorry’s not good enough to let you go
I thought this was the end
But it was a goodbye destined for hello

And you deserve the world
But it’s not like I can save you
Anymore than I can save myself
I don’t know what to do

I wanted to be your first breath
When you’re heart starts to beat
Instead I ended up dying
Laughing at your feet

You couldn’t lift me up
And I know I would go out of my way
If I had just one more chance
To ask you to please stay

Faded into the background of my own life
I'll hold it in, play our usual game
As I’m wide awake and thinking to my ceiling
Does he even remember my name

These battles are growing too loud
I’m ready to think about what I’ve done
Let me pay the consequences
I’m ready to admit that you have won

(Did you ever think…)

I’d like to think it was a truce
As if I’ve anything better to do
In the end I know ill die
Before I have the courage to hate you…

-i know its long so thanx for reading it thus far...anyway it was just...acctually i have no idea why i wrote this...regret it later, enjoy now...

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