Reach Out

I reach out to touch you
in the middle of my dreams
but when I wake up
my life is more unreal than it seems

I reach out to feel you
in the middle of the day
though you were a part of my body
there no longer you could stay

I reach out to touch you
when I see a child's smile
I think of if you would have my good looks
or maybe my sense of humor and style

I reach out to feel
and wish I didn't have this to handle
now I sit at home and wonder why
I realize how much I hurt you

I can't touch or feel you anymore
and with a simple gesture you were gone
I didn't want to abandon, leave you all alone
I'll always regret the day, from me you were withdrawn

I feel the depression, guilt, and the anxiety
I see the flashbacks, I want to die
I will meet you in the skies
I'll be the first to cry

You were mine and I will forever regret
I will forever be in your debt
and don't think that I'm like him
you're forever in my heart, someone I will never forget