Goodbye 'father'

Tonight, its not worth crying.
You told me you want nothing to do with me,
again.
I believe you,
I believed you twenty times ago you said that.
You tried buying my love,
but now you say my love isn't worth buying.
I really don't care anymore!
I'm so sick of you!
The way you look at me,
I always thought it looked perverted.
But now you'll never look at me again.
I always knew you didn't care about me,
you said it again tonight,
mom just stared at me,
and how emotionless I was,
because I already knew that.
Ya, thats right,
I know you don't love me,
I know that I was a mistake,
and still one in your eyes.
I know, don't make excuses.
Goodbye 'father'.
These are the last words I'll ever speak to you.

*I know it isn't good, but it got my feelings out. I really feel this way.**