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by Milla Nov 18, 2005 category : Sadness, depression / about depression
Ur colder then the wind colder then the ice ur colder then the snow u r just cold u have no heart of gold some1 must of hurt u u push away all the 1's u love to scared they wont love u back u sit in corners trying to be alone wanting to be in ur own little world away from the rest u snap at any1 who comes bye to help u u don't want help u say ur just fine yes ur fine cutting ur self and watching the blood drip it makes u feel happy like the knife is really ur friend but i will ask u y is the knife ur friend if its help causing u pain u will answer pain doesn't hurt if its all u felt u watch from a far as people have fun u wish u were 1 of them but ur to cold to care ur body is skinny no fat on ur bones u never get to eat since ur always alone u act like no 1 loves u when many do but u push away scared to be loved i try to help u but u don't want any at all u say help is for babys when i say fear is for wimps u stare into my eyes with fear and hurt in them u try to show me y u r so cold u act like no 1 knows how it feels to be un loved and trust me my friend we all feel like some times u ask me who i am u ask y i care i say to u my little friend i;m the reason y ur here u look at me with confusion u don't understand u try to stand up but body so weak i finally answer ur question u look at me with ease i say to u my friend I'm the heart that u don't have i ran away from u once u felt alone i couldn't bare to see u hurt so i went my own way ur eyes begin to water ur face is turning red u yell at me u scream y did i leave i told u i was scared i wasn't strong enough to help u i wasn't strong enough to care but to see u cold and lonely shy and afraid i knew it was sup to me to save u from ur grave i ask if u will let me in to help my old dear friend u say yes with happiness knowing that all was well u r no longer a cold heart girl with no 1 to love her but a caring person who had a friend in her with ur head up high with no sadness in ur eyes i will say to u hello my friend hello again........