Another pointless fight

Everyday and every night
is just another pointless fight
another fight to stay alive
with no real reason to be alive.

The effects of depression
they start to show
my self esteem
is very very low.

My will to live is non existent
my will to die is very persistent
knowing that it makes me sad
and it makes me feel really bad.

Ive changed alot since i was a kid
how did i end up like this
what went wrong in my life
for me to be turning to a knife.