Mommy&Daddy

Unhappily confined,
Depressingly confused.
Trust me,
I'm a big girl.
I'll do just fine.
Forget him,
Cuz I did.
It's not your problem.
Let me handle it.
Ive made some mistakes,
None that can't be fixed.
Drug-free and proud,
Nothing to worry about.
You don't want me to be happy,
But I've been punished enough.
I'm sorry I lost someone good,
I've suffered more.
Let me go,
And do what I want.
Careful,
Cautious.
Always watching.
I disappointed you,
That's what you say.
Was it what I said,
Or what I did?
You thought he was great,
You only knew half.
The fake side,
The mask.
He tricked you all,
But I saw right through.
I knew him too well,
That was the problem.
Scared,
Worried.
I didn't know what he'd do next.
He yelled,
Got pissed.
Because I had a friend.
A friend who would talk about anything.
He was there for me.
You won't let me see him
You say it's because you don't know him.
But do you want to?
I'm Lost
Numb.
I feel like I'm not really here.
Just passing time.
Locked up in my room.
You don't understand,
And never will.
I have to get out.
Leave,
Escape.
I'm not happy here.
You won't let me be.
This is why kids rebel.
I'm smarter than that.
Learned before,
You never noticed.
Oblivious to it all.
The hidden pain,
Covered by a sleeve.
I punished myself,
I thought it would help.
It made everything worse,
And for what?
I'm not going back,
To that place again.
The worst place in the world,
Inside my head.
Don't put me there again.
Let me go
Be free.
This is too much to handle.
What did I do wrong?
Really?
You don't know?
I embarrassed you,
Didn't I?
We wouldn't want that.
Not for you.
Perfect
Proper.
That's not me
I speak my mind
If you don't like it,
Too bad.
This is me,
The way I should be.
Free to talk,
Express.
You want me to hide,
Pretend it's ok.
Fake smiles,
No hate.
To make you happy,
I shut down inside.
Forget how to think,
Don't want to be this way.
I need to go.
Away from this.
Away from you.