Darkness

I sit in the dark
A knife in my hand
Thinking, hoping
Yet knowing the pain will expand

Unless I let it go
Unless I let it out
But to me it does no good
To scream or to shout

The only thing that lets it go
The pain inside of me
Is to drag the knife across
Until the scarlet tears I see

People ask me to stop
But they don't know its hard
Forever will I have reminders
For my arms are scarred

Scarred in remembrance
Of a time not long ago
For the pain made me
Feel high when I was low

Ill stop one day
Or it'll cost me my life
But for now I cannot
Give up my crimson knife