You Two

Why can something happen to me so horrible but than I think where I am now and I'm happy in an odd way.

I know I shouldn't be happy but in a way I am.

If you didn't die
If I never started to cut
If I didn't have friends who have died
I wouldn't be here right now writing this poem

I wouldn't be crying as much
I wouldn't know these 2 great guys that I have been able to open up to so much in the past month or so

Why do I have to loose something
that has been so great to me
but then I gain 2 new friends over the chat and over msn.

I am a new person ever since he died and I went through depression
and I haven't opened up to any1 about my feelings and all 2 guys are great.

Each one has their own problems but we all help each other through
but then there are days where we just talk about pointless things or ask random questions about one another!!!!!

You don't understand you 2...
I have been searching for friends like you for years to the day and now I have been lucky

But it still goes back to...if those things never happened I wouldn't be here right now..not knowing you 2 and knowing we are here for each other.

I have meet lot of great and wonderful people on this chat but you 2 are the ones that stand out in my mind and know I can come to you(even at we hours in the morning)

Well you both are great friends and I just want you to know I am here for you 24/7.

I love you two
*Always and forever more*
Julie