I feel happy
or maybe I'm just faking
trying so hard to keep the pain from coming out
I'm gonna blow up and never see reality
I feel loved
Or maybe they are just faking
not knowing how to act around me
thinking I'll get hurt but when the truth comes out
I'll end up hurt anyways
I feel alive
Or maybe I'm just faking
trying not to let my last breath from coming out
not wanting to leave the people that I truly love
One day everything is going to fall apart and I'm not going to breath anyway
I feel so many hings
am I happy or am I sad
am I loved or am I hated
am I alive or am I dead
I think I am happy to be alive and thankful to be alive
but then
I think I should be sad so I can be hated and it will be easier to die
