In my room there\'s raging silence
Staring at nothing in complete darkness.
Movies play back my memories.
Happy moments, sad ones, there are so many
It pains me that I have to go.
Leaving everything I\'ve worked hard for.
My childhood ends quickly, short and brief
The memory of my grandfather I\'ll walways keep
Transition phase, I\'m in America.
New environment, ghetto\'s dangerous.
Seaside... stayilng with my father\'s parents.
Punished daily by devout Christians.
Tears of pain, worked hard to live
The stronger I got the less tears I gave.
Moved to Marina, happy days.
So many unexplored exlplored many ways.
Regained childhood, newfound strength
Discovered what being loved really felt.
New school, lifelong friends discovered.
Cried when moving back was heard.
Didn\'t move, stayed in same place.
Uneventful, heart never raced.
Fastforward to February, very happy.
Found somebody I thought so friendly.
Unknown to me, we got along well.
Had fun, good friends, but then I fell...
Sadness came, but I kept it in.
Couldn\'t tell what I felt within.
Stayed there being a friend, comforting.
In the silence of the corner I stayed waiting.
Communication broke, I didn\'t bother.
Break from her seemed the best offer.
Six month break, so close to forgetting.
But no, that sweet asian girl wasn\'t permitting.
Talked to her again, emotions returned.
Why did it happen, what punishment did I earn?
I felt in the beginning, my feelings faded.
But dormancy awoke, due to the time I waited.
Fastforward to now, I\'ve grown so tired.
Days and nights of planned suicide.
Even though my love for her hasn\'t died.
I\'m dry, from all the rivers I\'ve cried.
She\'s not the issue, my life just crumbled.
From a high mountain, to the bottom I\'ve stumbled.
Now I end it, I\'m moving away.
To the Philippines, or to heaven I\'ll stay.
Anywhere but here, I\'d rather be.
Who\'ll take me first, God or family?
I choose God, for I\'m a family burden
I\'m better off leaving no problems.
Sorry to the one I love, I couldn\'t be with you well...
At least I was nice enough.. to leave you a farewell...
