Whimpering Jealousy

A whimpering sound from deep inside,
As my fear of loneliness I try to hide,
In my dreams I watch you leave,
I feel my heart break, my soul grieve,
I know jealousy is just an emotion,
And I shouldn't let it come between our devotion,
But it's not my fault, this is how I feel,
And only time can help my wounds to heal.

I trust you, I promise I really do,
But I hate it when she stands next to you,
Every morning I wake up with a feeling of dread,
Lingering dream worlds left in my head,
I have no strength left to just ignore,
And I get so scared that you'll show me to the door.

I only feel secure when you prove to me,
It's me that you want and this is how it should be,
But mention her name and my heart grows cold,
My strength drains as you loosen your hold.

When you scan the area looking for her,
I feel like my spirit is being thrown in the bin,
Somewhere inside I know it's not real,
Just stupid emotions meddling with how I feel.

I can see in your heart, it's me that you want,
But you two together, written in large font,
I cry myself to sleep every other night,
But I am determined to win in this fight.

Every morning I get to look in your eyes,
But she turns up and I stare at the skies,
I'm riding this emotional roller coaster ride,
But I'm trying and trying to keep it inside.

I love you so much, I couldn't bare to lose,
I'm sorry if I hurt you, I don't mean to be rude,
But alone in my bed, I just stay there and lie,
Trying to persuade my heart not to die.

I still have some strength to carry on,
When I know we are together as one,
She's just someone else who is known as your friend,
When I accept this, my jealousy will end,
You have so much in common, it's getting so hard,
For me to belong, seems like I picked the wrong card.

Okay, okay, I'm looking too far,
But I casually glance at the door left ajar,
But no matter how I feel I still love you,
And I'll follow you always, whatever you do.

She's just a friend, I'm trying to see,
That out of the two, you will choose me,
Part of me knows because it always does,
You wouldn't give her two thoughts, it's me that you love.

My dreams will get better and jealousy will fade,
Once again I'll believe in the love we made,
Just bare with me okay, I don't mean to hurt,
Sometimes I'm just dragging my soul in the dirt.

One day soon my tears will finally dry,
And my heart will smile and I'll no longer cry,
For when I grow strong, I'll no longer weep,
And all my negative feelings, out they will seep,
But until that day I will try to hide,
The whimpering jealousy I can hear deep inside.