Here I am,
All over again.
Writing you an email,
Wishing you were here instead
So I could tell you
These things in person,
To see your reactions to my stories,
To look into your eyes
As you listen to my words,
To sit next to you...
Just like we used to do.
I miss those days.
The memories are right there,
Like they just happened,
Right in front of my eyes.
They never go away.
Sometimes I wish they would,
Just so there would be
No more pain.
You haven't written me back.
You haven't called.
We have more in common
Than you think.
We had this instant connection,
Did you feel it too?
You're the only one
I can talk to about everything.
There are people I can only talk to
About certain things.
You're different,
You know the real me.
You've seen me as me.
Others only see what
I want them to see,
Because they don't want to see
The real me.
I don't change all the way around,
Only a part of me,
Just so the peace
Can be maintained.
Yes, I hate it.
I wish I could be the way I am
When I'm with you
All the time,
But I only want to be that way
With you.
I don't care about everybody
The way I care about you.
I only want to be with you.
You're the only one
I care about caring about me.
You're the one I want.
And here I am,
All over again.
Searching for the past,
And finding it all to soon.
Wanting you to come home,
And say those
Three little words to me.
Too much pain.
I wish it would all just go away...
But deep inside,
I want it to linger forever.
I don't want to lose you.
I need to hear your side of this.
How do you feel?
Do you have any idea
Of how much I love you?
You love me too,
I know you do.
And eventually,
You'll know it too.
