Two weeks ago I got that call the call i thought would make me fall. it showed up Gordon county hospital. I got so scared I didn't know if I should answer it. As soon as i did I heard people crying and then i heard *chalsey he is dieing*. Those words drove me crazy. He was so young he was so strong and so good. why would he have to get taken away. I dropped the phone and fell to the floor wondering if maybe I was dreaming if he would really be okay. Why did that phone call have to be to me? Why couldn't he still be here to breath. I tried to go to the hospital because they all said that his last wish was to see me. I didn't know what to do. I feel as if I have lied to him. I always promised him that i would be there for him since he was there for me. He died from a knife. A knife which every person can own. He could have fought back but i guessed he thought it was his time to go. I miss him so much. I wish that i wouldn't have moved away. I wished him and cobra weren't fighting that day. Big john I love you I am still your little Georgia peach. and you are still my big brother. But you broke a promise to . you said that you would be there when i had my other children and you said that you wouldn't die until I was ready for you to die. what happened to that *born to fight, trained to kill, ready to die, but never will? huh? come sing me a song come hold me all night long. come tell me that i am so sweet again. I miss you you were like family to me. Its not fair... RIP and i will soon be there will you.. As soon as you think it is time God will take me and we can be together as friends. O and why you are up in the heavens watch after my little boy he needs someone he knows... I love you...
