She's gone

From the moment
I heard those words
''she's gone''
yelling and screaming
with tears down my face
I couldn't believe it
I couldn't accept it
memories going through me
like a knife in the heart
I sat there by myself
just falling apart
millions of questions going through my head
why couldn't it have been me instead
my mom held me
holding me
ever so tightly
telling me she loved me always
she left
and that was our last
goodbyes and memories
laying there in bed
more depressed then i ever have been
losing you has made it a lot harder on me
my friends call
wondering why I'm gone
word gets out that
my mother was gone
people stop by
trying to make me feel better
I just get worse day by day
I finally say
this will be the end for me
then i tried killing myself
so they took me away
to a place where i can do no harm
to myself in any way
some of my family members
want to take me home
I say no
this is where i belong
listening to all the sounds
I can hear those words
echoing throughout
''she's gone.''