Im Really Done

The scars are there to remind me
Of the regrets thats happened along the way
Of the things thats almost killed me
That no one ever understood

The tears leave stains on my face
To remind me how awful its gotten
And to show how much I really loved you
And you just walked away

My hands tremble
Leaving my writing all sloppy
On this goodbye letter
Just in case one these nights I'm really done

I drink my problems away
And now I stumble through the door
Only to pass out
And hope to god I'm gone

I cut myself once more
Just wondering if its deep enough
Only to find out that
I'm still alive

I take these pills
To make me sleep
Trying to take enough to sleep forever
Only to wake up to tomorrow

And all this leads to
Is to make me worse than I am
And knowing
I'm going to be like this forever