Falling

You bring me down. You break me down.
Leaving me no choice but to turn things back around.
Don't understand why I let shit get to me the way I do.
Always something that makes me again, return to you.
Try easing the pain, but sometimes there's no cure.
Continue thinking of what it is, but seems to always be a blur.
My life is so complicated, never any explanation.
But I keep on going on with my day, somehow leads me to little sensation.
Soon enough things will get better and time will touch.
Getting through it all, choosing to never give up.
Everyday it seems like I get closer to heavan above.
But at least I won't have to deal with all this hate and diminishing love.
Why do I put myself through such misery?
I want to go back to being me, so why can't I just be?
Whiping away the tears, trying to overcome my fears.
Leaves me so far away, but yet so near.
It gets worse and worse and never seems to stop.
Starting from the bottom, trying to work my way back to the top.
It continues to build up and get under my skin
Digging me a deeper hole, hanging by a thread again.
They keep walking on by as if they know the actual me.
But the truth lies inside, and that's the part I shall let no one see.
I don't want to come in last and lose this puzzled game of life.
Trying to make the best of situations, But I'm not sure if it's possible tonight.
God save me from my own pain and make this all just go away.
Before I hit rock bottom, and leave myself speechless today.