Lost to the night

As I sit here
Thoughts flowing freely
My chest feeling heavy
Heart in my throat!

A sense of foreboding
Malevolent feelings
Worry, despair, abandonment
Confusion!

Its 3am, Tired
Yet sleepless
Nervous energy, from my toes
To my standing hairs!

Lost to conscious thought
Tears com unbidden
Staring into blank space
No focus, Lost!

The stomach is sinking
Feet are frozen
Throat is on fire
Want to scream!

No answer will come
Being chased by demons
To close, can hear them
Whispering betrayal, Loss!

4am
Sun will be up soon
To long,
Until I am in the light!