The cursed life

Looking all around me
seeing alot of success
thinking to my self
why am i such a big mess?

not knowing what the answer is
i ask around to seek
to seek the answer to my problems
trying not to feel so weak

so weak of all my surroundings
so weak of all this pain
trying to be better
striving to be different again and again

nothing is really changing
i still feel all the same
maybe I'm just cursed
and meant to live with all this pain