A poem for my nan

My world feels like it's been ripped apart
I'm only 16 and yet it feels like the end not the start,
since you've gone things don't make sense, it's as if the worlds turned upside down, i thought i could cope with you gone
but all it does is tear me up inside
why can't you be here? just to say it will be alright
when you was in hospital, you'd put on a smile
just for us kids, if only for a while

the day i found out you were no longer alive, i knew there and then everything would tumble fall come crashing down around us, how would we survive?

it broke my heart when i knew
i could hear the sadness in mom's voice, she didn't have to tell me what was wrong, I'd had a bad feeling all along,

i wanted you to live i really did,
but if it meant suffering then no!
i know it's not nice to talk about death, but i need to express how i feel,
it hurts deep down, it's been some time now but the pain it's still there,
the same as short memories will be too

I'll be thinking forever of you
you're treasured memories are in my mind
and love for you in my heart
all the time
always