Letter To God

Dear god
i pray now
that i will stop
what i am doing
and just live
i pray now
that you will notice me
everyone will notice me
before it is too late
i pray now
that i could sleep
i pray

scrap that

Lord
why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why.

no..

I pray to god now
that i can not
be such a cow
oh how
i would like now
to not b

im not even gonna finish that

god
i\'ll level whith you
ok?
why couldnt you make me like Hannah
why couldn\'t you make me thin
why couldnt you make me pretty
why couldnt you make me normal
why couldnt you make me not self harm
why couldn\'t you make me happy
just happy
why couldnt you make me have friends
true friends
why the beep beep did you make me me?

nope

right then mr. god guy
i want to be
pretty
clever
happy
THIN
a non-cutter
an eater
not messed up

um..

To God
hello
p*** o**
goodbye

not quite right

i think in the end this is what i would write in a letter to god:

dear god
i wish i was up there with you
to talk things through
to leave all this behind
the cutting and the starving
the selfloathing and the weighing
that taunts and the teases
the misery and the mayhem
all left behind

if you have got this far then sorry for wasting your time.
when i wrote the title i had a poem all planned out, but this just poured, no tumbled out. sorry. dont bother to comment. critizizem always depresses me.

p.s. hope you enjoyed your peek into my mind

p.p.s. i\'m not even religious.