Shit Happens

When I was young,
I thought life would be so easy.
Thinking dad would come back one day,
But the thought makes me wheezy.
Because I'm still alone here.

Then I started to realize,
I was just dreaming.
Dad never came back to us,
Life started to have no meaning.
But I guess shit happens.

I thought I would never go through that pain,
Having people think I'm nothing.
When I feel the rain,
It wipes away all tears,
Though I'm still going insane....

Thought being myself could take the pain away,
Thought I was an easy-to-understand person,
That people would see that the tears I cried were to be that way,
But then I had nothing else to say,
Because shit happens.

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I wrote this after my mom's store almost got robbed and my brother got stabbed 3 or 4 times and I was shaking so bad I wanted to cry because the dispatcher lady wouldn't answer me and I just felt like screaming really loud. There was blood everywhere and my mom got cut, too. Life got worse when I realized dad wasn't working, he was probably dead somewhere because I noticed my mom always wears black like a widow and my and my brother are always worrying about her and I got into a car accident with my mom but only I got hurt because she was drunk driving and she was stupid enough to bring along our dogs and I was crying because I wanted to go home and I was worrying that they ran away. Life was never the same after I turned 7, then my mom got mad because I started getting B's and I turned stupid because she never really supported me....