You & I....A Lie

All I ever wanted was all you ever promised
Tried to make me believe I wore your heart on my sleeve
Funny thing is that I was never convinced
Though your sweet words had me living a lie
Gave me hope that you would change your ways
That someday we would have a family & I would be so proud to call you my husband
A changed man, well-spoken, sharply dressed
Well mannered, intellectual, but still street smart
A man proud to have a woman that has his back in every way
Right now it all sound like a far-fetched fantasy...never reality
I once envisioned this with you
Hard to believe? I'm sure it is
A picture perfect moment that you know can never be
Your true colors can be hidden, but they always seem to shine through
You can talk a good one, but just can't change the real you
My conscience will always be clear cause my best effort was given
My best was given to a person that deserved my worst
A person who only kept me around cause they were scared of being alone
Dragged me down with you cause you were selfish & uncaring of my emotions
My heart was bruised, but it still beats like before
It will survive just like me & you. You will go your way & I'll go mine
Only time can heal all wounds
And I would rather hurt for sometime over living a lie
A big lie like the thought of you & I