I wanted you to love me, mother

* This poem is about a albino kid and he's tell it what he remembered what it was like for his mother to not love the real him.*

Mother you didn't want me from the start,
I guess there was no more room inside your heart
I wanted to be loved thats all i asked from you,
I guess I'll never hear you say i love you too
When i was born you pushed me away,
not in the same room with me you would stay
You would moan ' stay away i don't want you as my child,
tears ran down my face as father went wild
Was i the way you didn't want me to be,
I guess i only wanted you to see the real me
But you ran away you pushed me far form your love,
To you i wasn't a miracle sent from above
I was so young yet I'll never forget how you tried to hide,
Your hatred for me wasn't that hard to find
The pain to see you cry your tears,
You giving up was my greatest fears
Mostly you cried every day,
far from your heart was where i stayed
But inside my heart i hope you would try,
there might be a day that you won't cry
A day that you would hold me so close,
Not because they made you but because it was your choice
But every day your hatred for me only just grew,
Till one day you yelled I don't love you!'
You hated me for being born what i was that you made your self forget,
Then poof i was gone from your memories that was all set
I was just your child's friend from the past,
Your hatred for me went away that fast
You smile at me down the long halls,
You invite me to go with your child to the mall
If you were to remember I'll never be beautiful in your eyes,
yet not know you are living all the lies
I wanted you to keep trying,
But your eyes wouldn't stop crying
My looks that broke your heart, brought all this from the start
Was it selfish for me to want you to keep trying?
Yet there will never be a day you won't
stop crying.

* I got inspired for this poem by a book, i changed some things. Please if you have any comments tell Please vote.*