Tear me down more, i dare you

It is all falling apart, my life
my hopes and dreams have lost the fight
you've put me down one too many times
stomped on my thoughts and killed each height
i know you did, you hated me so
hidden your secrets, and told me to go
when i believe things cant get any worse
you correct my statement and prove your point
screaming every thought you once had
take me down farther, and kill dreams in my head
you've done this too long for you to enjoy
now its no longer hard, you've always won
its getting to hard to hold back my tears
let alone fight, i have too many fears
you've brought me down, more than ever
and you see my gun, i pulled the trigger
i didn't once see a worried face on you
as i held the gun to my mouth, and then shoot
you almost seemed happy, now that I'm gone
because you hated me so, and I'm no longer drawn
ill now be in heaven, with those people i love
who care about me, and ill then be with god
ill find my happiness and have no more fears
and leave you behind, without any tears