You should have cared

Here i go again crying out my eyes, tearing out my heart
I'm lying in my bathtub, drenched in my own blood
the slits on my wrist are numb, along with my own pain
if you noticed my weakness, i know you wouldn't believe
my knees wont stop shaking, I'm too scared to realize
my tears wont stop draining, it is near the end of my life
i would say goodbye to those who have cared and loved
yet no one even noticed my dark shadow arising from above
maybe you should have spoken to that lonely girl
stop me from the escape of my bathroom floor
i thought maybe my ending would be a cut too deep
instead I'm drowning in my own blood because I'm too weak
Ive spent my hole life without a purpose or meaning
until i realized my purpose was to die for nothing
so i inhale and exhale my deep few breaths left
and look at my red walls and sea of blood Ive kept
my empty eyes close, i hear my last heart beat
those kids who used to laugh, they wont laugh at this