My grandpa left me here

Ten hundred words pass through my ear yelling screaming is not something i want to hear

i cry at night because of verbal abuse i cry because of being worthless and of no use

i am told i am awful bad names
i am yelled at for playing games

i hate this fighting
this is
why i am writing

i want to express myself to anyone who once to listen
i want a family to love me and see my smile glisten

i want someone to love me, hold me, someone i can trust
i need mu life to be filled of dreams and lust

i want to get out of this dreadful place
i want to fix this torn lace

i loved someone once but then he died
i loved him so much i cried

i was mad at him for leaving me with these people i can not stand
i want him to be present here to hold my hand

i got over it it wasn't his fault that he had died
but i loved him so much so i still cried

i thought of all the happy moments we spent
i remembered all the wonderful places we went

i realized he loved me even though he was no longer there
i realize d that he loved me and was the only one to care

the people i live with don't
if they tried they could, but they wont

they will never love me the way he once had theres only one way to make my heart glad

I'm leaving these people to find someone to love me the way my grandpa once had
then when i find them my heart will be glad

i love you grandpa more than you'll ever know i love you no matter where you or i have to go

*dedicated to my grandpa Gary