DO I MATTER??

As I sit here
I'm thinking about you
I'm lost in all my thoughts
And I dont know what to do

I guess I just dont understand
How can you just turn and walk away
Leaving me here all alone
And pretending that everythings okay.

I told you I didnt want things to be complicated
So how can you just turn your back?
Leaving me here with no word of you
Do you even care, can I ask you that!?

Didnt you ever wonder
Do you ever think about me?
Think of what we were
Of what we could be?

Look now at what weve become
All of this isnt real
If only love didnt exist
And it wasnt something I could feel.

Do I even matter?
Do I mean anything?
Am I only in your way
Or am I just annoying?

I want to end all this pain
Dont you see im nearly dead?
Everyday I die a little
And today is what I dread

I find myself pushing you away
When I need you the most
I guess im just scared
But its really you I want to hold close

Because a part of you will live in me
Way down, deep inside my heart
I constantly pray and I wish
From you I will never, ever depart.

I need you here for me
To take my pain away
To tell me everything will be okay
So please tell me that youre here to stay.