I just wanted to know
What it felt like,
To lie in your arms.
To sleep, to dream,
In peace as your heart beats
Close next to my ear.
To know your smile
In meant just to make
My blood boil,
Has left an imprint upon
My opaque heart.
It didn't matter
That you never saw,
Never wanted,
What could ideally be labeled
"The perfect fit."
Now with your daunting touch
Haunting my insecurities,
I feel naked, helpless,
As you turn around
And turn away.
I thought love
Couldn't leave this
Nauseating feeling in me.
This sick feeling burning
Away my body and soul,
But still this void is swallowing me alive.
Your love it seems,
Is toxic,
Acid eating at my fragile heart,
And you don't even know it.
And while I see it,
Feel it sipping the life
Out of my very essence,
I'll drown in your shallow let down.
Sucking dry your bitter poison to the marrow,
As desperate to hear your parched sweet nothings,
Knowing they are nothing but the dust
Suffocating my last bit of hope.
