Suicide Letter

I am writing this to you,
To let you know of what I\'m about to do.
I\'m going to commit suicide,
And I\'ll jump it like a ride.
I hope everyone will be fine.

I\'m sorry for being an ass all the time.
AND FU** YOU DAD!
You should be put to jail for all your crimes.
Every night I\'m wondering why you left us,
Every second I\'m wondering why mom makes a fuss.

FU** YOU DAD!
Look what mom\'s become.
Look at what you\'ve done.
Why did you do this to us?
Mom gave you her trust.
Was it just for the lust?

Mom\'s been lying,
And every night she\'s crying.
Mom lost everything,
Look at what you\'re doing!
Just know she\'s been trying.

Mom\'s fixing your mistakes.
Look at what her tears make.
You left me when I was a baby.
Before I was born maybe.
All this pain drives me crazy.

I don\'t think I\'ll ever understand you.
But now I know exactly what to do.
Mom\'s been smoking and drinking because of you.
She\'s been working to make our lives brand new.
You think I\'m joking?
Instead of her, I\'m the one choking!

Tell Amelia and Travis they were the closest friends I\'ve ever had,
And tell Kamilah she\'s mad(crazy).
Tell Raiza thanks for always putting up with me,
Tell Stephanie she\'s something I\'ll never be.

Let Imani know that she\'ll always be with me,
Tell everyone I\'m sorry for making them pissy.
Tell my brother thanks for always look out for me,
Tell all my teachers thanks for helping me become all I could be.
Tell mom she\'s been working hard.
Let her know she\'s always been the best mom.
Tell Jisoo and Jihoon they were always fun,
Tell them I\'ll miss them very much.

This is my suicide letter,
And now I feel better.
All my wounds have healed,
All my pain is sealed.
Tell dad I hope this wakes him up.
Let him know what\'s up.
Tell him I hope he\'s good,
Ask him if he knew I could.

I HOPE YOU GET TO READ THIS DAD!!
It\'s only you that has made me mad.

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I wrote this at home and added things to it at school. My dad inspired me to write this, and Stephanie got mad at me for spreading a rumor about her, and I feel like an ass for it. My mom drinks and smokes everyday, and me and my brother are always begging her to stop. My mom always pulled my hair when she was drunk, and my dad was pretty much the reason we\'re in debt. At school I\'m always alone because my friends Amelia and Travis are in the other class. Raiza and I stopped talking, and I only talk to the guys because we usually have similar interests. I wish my dad would come back to us but my mom\'s always saying he would come in Christmas and when he doesn\'t come I\'m always asking her why and she said he probably missed the plane. I know shes lying. Thanks for reading my suicide letter.
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-Jin