Death grip

I grew up to fighting, yelling and screaming
It was the night after my ninth birthday
My dad had gotten out of control
He had taken it out on my mom
Right in front of my room
I'm screaming for my dad
to stop hitting my mom
My brother called the police
My dad went to jail
I went with my mother
and waited by her hospital bed
I was never able to forgive my dad
Never able to look straight in his eyes
For all i could remember
was blood dripping from my moms face
I was never the same
Always thought the worst
The court said me and my brother
would now be afraid
Scared to live a love life
Frightened to get married
For the actions one drunk father did
would carry on with me forever
The next month was back to normal
Until Saturday when dad was drunk again
He had kicked my mom out
Onto the street
My mom had time to grab her keys
My dad came upstairs yelling at me
What did i do?
was my plead to safety
He made me get out of the house
Into the numbing coldness
My mom, brother and i
Had to live in my moms car
I thought i would kill my dad
For i cant take his drunken attitude
My mom had loved him so much
She had not had a divorce yet
I beg my mom
To not get tortured anymore
She said she didn't have the money
We wouldn't be able to survive
I would have to go to Poland
I cant leave my mother
To this drunken idiot
The violence never ended
Never will
I went to the police
They know me well
I've tried suicide
for my life wasn't worth living
I couldn't escape
from my dads death grip
I was never able to forgive my dad
Never able to look straight in his eyes
For all i could remember
was blood dripping from my moms face