I slice my self up and peel back my skin
I want to see what I truly am within
Am I just a network of bones and blood
I'd shove my eyes inside to see if I could
Why do I stand still breathing where I am
Listening to the cries of the slaughtered lamb
Another crowd, humans follow like sheep
If I only knew the secret maybe I could sleep
I take the cleaver and prise at my flesh
The blood seems decayed but smells fresh
Scars are reminders of mistakes I have done
The coldness of reality burns away our sun
The beat of my heart is so loud, I'm alone
With these voices of denial Iâ??m never on my own
People don't care anymore
Your easier to forget and to ignore
Why is everything so hate driven today
I've never been taught how to act or what to say
I am running to my fate without any known direction
I am the antidote that still fears your infection
I am the darkness in your silver cloud
I am the emptiness in every crowd
It is my grim obsession yet I don't want your help
I want to dance upon razors to the good of your health
I've been told that Sundays child is full of grace
So I'll smile for you through a mutilated face
Have you seen pale lips after a kiss from a knife
What once was dead seems to be full of life
What I feel inside I don't consider to be agony or pain
I wouldn't say I'm depressed angry or vein
This is my soul forever locked away in my keeping
This aching in my stomach stops me from sleeping
This beautiful life is my life so who are you to comment
Tell me how you want to help me and for me you lament
How you cry inside till your eyes can't see
Come on I beg you lie for me
