Sick of trying

Sick of trying,
Tired of crying,
Yeah I'm smiling, but inside...I'm dying
I'm desperate for someone to understand
So desperate for someone to hold my hand
I need this hurt to stop
I need it to go away
I need someone to hear
These cries Im hurtin to say
I'm sick of fighting a war within myself,
Of being beaten back by life,
I'm sick of trying to protect myself,
Whilst my hand holds the knife
These cuts I wear are leaving creases,
You can trace the scars to fit the pieces
Lifeless as the pain and hurt I feel
Cut me as deep as they are real
Lost among those who seem so strong
You'll find me silently walking on
Cutting isn't something you do just for fun
It's something you do when you have nowhere else to run
How will you know I'm hurting, if you cannot see pain?
To wear it on my body shows what words cannot explain
I can cry oceans, and cut till im dead
But in the end it's all in my head
You see I'm just a broken person
Living on broken ground
Waiting to be noticed
And waiting to be found
You can give me a reason to smile,
And I'll give you a reason to cry,
You can give me a reason to live,
But I'll give you 10 to die
It's so hard watching your friends laugh and smile
While you're sitting there knowing life's not worth while
You'll never truly understand my fight until u see me cry like I do every night
All alone hugging my teddy tight
I'm the little girl who screams for help
But no one hears.
She needs someone to be there
But no one wipes away her tears
Bitter broken dreams, lost pride
No future, tears unable to hide
Broken promises and constant lies
and this is why you see: I cry