Diamonds Purls or Rope?

I wish i didn\'t have to wake up to my mum telling me how much of a disgrace i am telling me i need to do this and that to look better, to be better.
I wish i didn\'t have to wake up knowing my daddy wont come home tonight because he is out with his new s/ut.
I wish i didn\'t have to hang around with the people who think they/we are better than everyone else when in reality were worse.
Wish i didn\'t have to sit through each day pretending I\'m OK. Pretending I\'m going to be alright and putting up a fight.
I wish people would just see beauty isn\'t everything...
and money isn\'t sh!t.
I wanna hang myself tonight but I\'m trying to decide purls, diamonds or a rope?