Wishing you were here with me now,
I lay in my bed and for a moment,
when I look to my left I could almost feel you beside me.
It's like you're here with me in spirit,
rather than flesh.
I can almost feel your skin on mine,
and hear your voice in my ear.
Whispering sweet nothings to me.
A sensation pulsates through my veins,
one that's so familiar.
Butterflies fill my stomach as I think of you.
Your face clearly envisioned in my mind,
I want so much to reach out to you,
to hold you in my arms.
I want to show you that I'm not just a kid.
But I'm a person,
a person that cares for you so much,
that it sometimes hurts inside.
Sometimes I just feel like I'm wasting my time,
but I can't make my heart stop loving you,
I can't make my mind forget you.
There's no way to fully move on.
I've never been successful,
all those times I wanted to hate you,
I couldn't.
I only realized how empty I was without you,
and now I'm opening my eyes to see something new.
Something that has been there for a while.
A feeling so familiar,
but yet so different now.
It feels so much stronger than before.
Am I crazy?
Or am I in love?
I think it's a little of both.
And I long so much for you to see,
how complete you make me feel.
Just by coming on line and saying hi.
And that day I saw you,
for the first time in months.
The first time I was able to wrap my arms around you,
and feel your arms around me too.
It was strange to hear your voice,
but it was like a melody to me.
And the warmth of your aura surrounded me fully.
I long so much just to say I love you.
And to hear you say it too,
the day when I can finally mean it,
the day it'll all be new.
A time when things will be different,
a time when we both can feel,
what true love is like.
And soar above the clouds,
floating on it's endless high,
together like eagles in the sky.
