What does love really mean?

I remember when we first met
I remember out first argument
I remember all the magical times
Especially the day the love was sent

We met in 7th grade
In that dusty old room
I was with my best friend
When the magic started soon

We started talking
We soon became friends
If we can't be lovers
Then friends till the end

We started teasing each other
We started making up names
We had so much fun
But then something happened and nothing ever was the same

It started when you ditched me with my friends
I went where you said you were
But when I got there
I started crying and everything was such a blur

Because you see
You weren't there
I thought friends were supposed to care

But I you really didn't
So I guess I was wrong
"I'll always be there"
We just part of a song

From then on I ignored every call
I don't know why
But I soon forgave them
I don't know why I forgave you, you didn't even try

They all said sorry
They all apologized
But you...
Just please take one look in my eyes

Do you see the sadness?
Do you see the pain?
Do you see beneath this smile?
Do you see my infinite shame?

Don't stop reading
Because there's more
The words of pain, I wrote on the sand
But only the words got washed away on the shore

You gave me so much hints
Of something I don't know
I just wish you would tell me
I never thought you would sink this low

To lie about something
That has so much to do with me
Or even lie at all
Don't you see?

You don't know what your doing
And I don't know what I'm saying
But I hope you tell the truth
To keep the lies from staying

I lay here trying to write this poem
But words can't seem to express my thoughts
Wondering if anyone would see my pain
You know the day I get caught?

But now let's forget
So we can see what else you did
Besides the fact when I needed you
You ran away and hid

With a volley ball I got hit in the head
"ah ha you got hit with a volleyball!"
Was what you said

You frikin sucker
That was cruel
Don't say you didn't mean it
Cause I'm no longer your fool!

I know that ain't the truth
I know you just lied
That was a stupid thing
A stupid thing you tried

I won't even try
To remember the rest
One of the old sayings
"I guess I did not past the test"

I didn't past the test
Of proving I was true
But right now I don't care
Even though all I wanted was you

There was another test
Of if you were my friend
Another old saying
"I guess this is the end"

I still don't know
What was the point in my words
But at least for once
My feelings were heard

And I will always remember
When the love was sent
But when I think twice
I wonder what love really meant

Dedicated to K.E.
Written on November 2, 2005