I Won't Cry

I think about my problems,
I think about my family.

I see how much my family relate
to my problems.

I think about you,
I think about love.

Then I look at you and wonder,
am I in love or is it just lust.

I think about the difference between the two.
I think about how hard I'm thinking.

I realize I don't know the answer,
probably because I've never really been loved.

I think about the tears I've cried for people.
I think about how many I've cried for myself.

I know there is no comparison.
I ask myself how many people have cried for me.

I couldn't seem to come up with an answer.
I realize nobody cries for me.

So I won't cry for anyone anymore,
Maybe I'll stop feeling sorry for myself.
Maybe my life will be sorry and tear free.

I won't cry

I thought I wouldn't cry,
I'd never cry for anyone.

Then,
I found you.

The only one who had truly loved me.
I finally know the difference between love and lust.

I hope you know and realize,
that you are my first,
my only true love.

I'm sorry for everything,
for anything I've done.

I know I've broken you're heart,
and hurt you.

I hope you find somebody worth your time,
worth your effort.

But I also hope you know,
I will always love you,
and I thank you for showing me exactly what love is.

Now I know I will cry,
but only for the ones I love.

And I always cry for you and worry that you won't find that perfect soul mate .

I hope that maybe that perfect match is me but until I know for sure I'll keep crying for you and hoping that someday you will cry and Hope for me to.