Am my own greatest enemy....A lot of people say that I tend to be hard on my self....true.... I can bring myself down in such a way that I make myself cry....Weird huh....thats me.......I have set a lot of goals for myself....I tried to meet a lot of it but, there were loads of disappointments..one after another....nobody knew How I felt...I was keeping a brave face for everybody...but deep inside...i was slowly dying....trying to convince myself that everything will be okey....There was a point that I questioned GOD....I ask him why does he have to give me hope when at the end of it would still be disappointment and pain.....I asked him everyday why? I was like Jim Carey in Bruce Almighty...questioning his ways......why?...why me?Then I gave up asking....I realized that God doesnt have to answer me.....I have to look for the answers on own and pray that he guide me on my quest.....Im still in the process of looking for answers....But I dont question him anymore... I have to admit...sometimes it does get lonely...but I know in my heart everything will be okey...not now but it will soon.
