One day at a time

People are always saying to live life to the fullest! But i hate that.
So i just live one day at a time just enought to make it to the next!
That all i can handle
Tonight is the night that i lay awake in my bed can't get to sleep for i fear i will go to deep. Too deep i will never get out ..................
Today was the day i fear that my life will change never be the way...
I never picturced it be this way but life never happens the way you want it to especaily when it come down to my life......................