The First Time I Cut

by lonelynow   Nov 26, 2005


I run the knife over my thigh
its somewhere where no one will see
why am i doing this? i don't know
i don't know whats controlling me

i wait for the knife to bite through the flesh
and for the blood to come running out
i wait for that feeling of relief i want
a feeling that i have read about

i sharpened the knife before hand
i don't know why its so hard
I feel like I'm not cutting, I'm sawing
i feel like from this relief i am barred

i give up on myself reaching my goal
someone will wonder if i linger
so i start to eat my pear, cutting it into slices
when i accidentally cut my little finger

true story, why am so rubbish at every thing. i cant even harm myself properly. life sucks. and there is nothing i can do about it. Plz comment.

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  • 17 years ago

    by Becca

    "rubbish at everything"? I thought this was wonderful. It reminded me of the countless times i sat alone in my room with a blade to my arm, but i couldnt do it. I wouldnt have started if i hadnt accidentally scraped my arm against those scissors. 5/5. gosh, it brought back memories

  • 18 years ago

    by Michelle

    Awww...don't give up... i have some poems wrote on cutting also... feel free to look at my poetry. you're a good writer. very well expressed. keep up the great work. If you need anyone, I will always be here to listen.

    Hugs,

    Michelle

  • 18 years ago

    by The Poetic Child

    Nice Poem, with great detail, and only thing that i would say is, Its a great poem, but if u want your work to be really good try using a bigger vocab in your rhyming for example, hard and barred, perfect rhyme its not a common word, linger and finger are good also, but see and me, are too much of a common rhyme, so if you use a bigger vocab, especiall since that was in the first stanza, u can capture the readers mind quickly and make them want to read more, and it will be good so they will leave u a comment and vote, but excellent poem, keep it up, ttyl sometime

    PeAcE OuT
    ~RiCo SmootH~

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