I have evolved and changed,
Living through the pain,
My smiles are fake,
I force them all i make,
My laughter is disguised tears,
But no one can see, no one can hear,
When people get too close, i shut them out,
How ever much they mean to me i throw them out,
I live through the hurt with every restrain,
To live alone is to die without pain
My old self pushed everyone away,
But now it has returned in camouflage for it to stay,
i didn't see it creep up on me,
But now in my shadow i can see,
my old self never left, it just hid,
Now my eyes are crying unable to lift my lids,
I'm not myself, I'm scaring myself,
This is why i cut myself,
It's so easy to leave, and so hard to stay,
I just don't want to live another day,
It doesn't ease,
It doesn't cease,
All i do is fold,
And all i am is cold!
