What's Your Excuse...Nick?

*this is quite long...but please read..thanks xoxo

You've left me bleeding once more,
I don't know how to explain.
Just how low you make feel,
All of my anguish and pain.

It was a few months ago,
That you left me torn apart.
In a world where I wished no existence,
Because I no longer had a heart.

I lost my two best friends,
And I had no will to pull through.
You had made a horrible mistake,
And you know that it's true.

But now we talk again,
And I'm making such an effort.
To try and mend this bridge,
That has constantly been burnt.

Now you think you're funny,
Being a smart ass prick.
You rub it all in my face,
Just to see how hard I'll trip.

You like a good friend of mine,
No happiness will I deny.
But I hate that smug attitude you have,
Because you know I'm breaking inside.

I don't care that you like her,
Honestly you and me are through.
But you are being so insensitive,
I didn't picture these words coming from you.

I have always been there for you,
To hold your waiting hand.
Because you knew I'd listen,
And would help to make you stand.

But it seems I'm nothing to you,
You're taking advantage of me.
Your bringing up all the pain I felt,
And that I had tried not to see.

I got over this once,
And I finally stood some ground.
Then you go and crush my soul,
And start pushing me around.

If this is what you're offering,
'You and me as friends'.
I'm telling you I'm not up for it,
Because this pain just never ends.

You said you'd try so hard,
And that you were terribly sorry.
But you're just making this all worse,
And then you tell me to not worry.

What's your excuse?
To make me feel this pain,
Like it's me who's committed the sins,
And to you it's just a game.

What's your excuse?
To frown upon me so,
When I'm the one, who's been there,
When you were letting go.

What's your excuse Nick?
To treat me like you do.
Do you realize what you're doing?
No i don't think you have a clue...

*I'm not sure where this belongs...sad or love or friends...help!?!
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