Gritting my teeth

Gritting me teeth,
is holding back tears,
of all of those times,
i was anxious in fear.

gritting my teeth,
is holding on tight,
not wanting you to start,
yet another fight.

gritting my teeth,
is afraid and alone,
not aloud out anymore,
no use of the phone.

gritting my teeth,
is living on hope,
constant treading on eggshells,
where i can no longer cope.

gritting my teeth,
is the tears i did cry,
to scared to speak out,
to afraid to say goodbye.

gritting my teeth,
is the soul i once had,
over the man i once loved,
who i used to call dad.

gritting my teeth,
is now the loss of us,
things all never be the same,
Il never show you the same love.

gritting my teeth,
was behind a closed door,
could never speak out,
didn't live anymore.