Lovely Target

Why am I always the one who gets shut down?
Why am I the one who has to face the pain?
Why am I the one who always has to have my life put in vain?

I don` t understand what I do wrong,
What I do to deserve this pain.
I don`t understand why you guys have to make me feel this way.

I will be so happy,
And get my hopes up high,
I will be optimistic and think
"well maybe this will be the guy"

The positive attitude does not do a single thing,
All it does it get me happy for no reason,
And lead me to getting nothing,

I try to be happy and look up in life,
But I always get put down,
Every time I think I`m getting somewhere something bad always has to come around,

Someone always has to hurt me,
and make me feel so weak,
Someone always ends up making me not want to speak.

I just want to know what it is I do,
Can you please tell me now?
Just tell me, because either way I will begin braking down.