Sometimes

Sometimes I think it was heaven
Sometimes I call it paradise
Then sometimes I remember
All the lonely nights

Sometimes I reminisce
And wish that I was there
Other times I remember
How I felt you did not care

Sometimes I still want you
So badly that it hurts
Then I remember
How you could be a jerk

Sometimes I want to love you
Until the end of time
Other times I realize
That you were never mine

Sometimes I want to find you
And hold on and never let go
Then I remember
You never let your feelings show

Sometimes I live in yesterday
And dream about tomorrow
Other times I remember
How you caused me so much sorrow

Sometimes I think you are
The missing piece to my puzzle
Then I remember
That you never liked to snuggle

Sometimes I believe
You were the apple of my eye
Other times I remember
How you made me cry

Sometimes I believe
You are my destiny
Then I remember
How much I wanted to leave

Sometimes I wonder
If we will ever be together
Other times I realize
The answer is probably never

Sometimes I realize
That you and I are over
Then sometimes I believe
You are my four leaf clover

Sometimes I follow my head
Other times I follow my heart
Then I suddenly realize
Why you and I are apart

Sometimes you loved me
When it was convenient for you
Other times you shelved me
And made me feel so blue

Sometimes the memories of you
Makes me want to stay
Then I remember
Why I ran away

Sometimes I know it is over
And we were never meant to be
The suddenly I realize
That you still mean so much to me

Sometimes you are an illusion
That is consuming my mind
Other times you are pure confusion
And better off left behind

Sometimes I want to end this
And finish this useless game
Other times I feel that without you
My life cannot be the same