When I first loved you

When I first saw you
I thought you were cool
But too cool for me
Cause I was always the fool

When I first met you
I wanted you to be mine
No matter how often I would try to say it
I would always go home thinking I tried

When you first told me
The way you really felt for me
I was in shock
And extremely happy

When I first dumped you
I thought you didn't care
That I meant nothing to you
Because you were never there

When I first kissed you
It was the second time we dated
You were awesome but felt like my brother
Then I realized I was jaded

When I last saw you
It was directly in your eyes
I saw fear of you never having me again
Now ever looking at you I will have to despise