How can I pretend....

How can I pretend
I'm not frozen in this moment?
How can I be sure
You even care?
How do I know that
You're not using me?
Why do I
still bother?
Do you know
I sit at the window, waiting?
Did you know
I used to wonder, crying?
You seemed like just one more addition
To my foolish imagination
You were real
And I took that for granted
I don't know where you are
But I guess you're back home
In that quiet place you call Ohio
I miss you sometimes
But I have to be strong
Isn't this what I wanted
All along?
I guess this is my punishment
My moronic regret
But I'd rather have this
Than never have met you
I used to know
I was so sure
But how can I pretend
We've never met
We've never talked
We've never tried to be together
How can I pretend
To not remember
The person I'll never forget?