After a fight

All alone,
can you feel the pain,
everything just cant be washed away like the rain,
you sit alone and think,
should i,
should i not,
thou can not help to think what he/she can not ponder,
making the hard decision to stay alive,
make your thoughts past not once but twice,
knowing in your heart you know whats right,
people just think they can change your life,
but now you think,
look what they have raised me to become,
a person within is just waiting to rise again,
the times get vicious to much on your mind,
all you can wonder is who or what is mine,
loosing track of time,
you have none to waste,
you pick up your knife in shameful haste,
one direct incision,
can make it all just turn to tears,
hoping you can take you life,
putting all the pain behind you,
letting it all go,
but you stop and think,
you know you have to stay,
theres someone wanting you,
all you can do is say no to the blade,
because the girl you love,
you promised never to let her down,
to always be there for her,
to cheer her up when she is down,
to make her feel like she is wearing a crown,
to always love her,
you take the knife and you throw it forth,
the knife hits the wall,
and bounces back shattered in half like your life,
you take a breath,
you grab the phone,
you dial the number,
you set things straight,
everything is perfect,
everything is great,

~~this poem is dedicated to my girlfriend Bianca!!~~