My head and my heart

I was over him,
i though,
i didn't care,
but apparently not.

there were
no more dreams
no feelings
it seems.

but just the other night
when i closed my eyes,
my heart could no longer deceive
my head's lies.

the thoughts of him
seeped though
i would have prepared
if i had only knew.

now I'm afraid
to close my eyes at night
because my head and heart
tend to fight.

they both think
that they are right
so my head and my heart
tend to fight.

an eternal conflict
is what i bore,
i wish i didn't have to choose
because I don't know any more.

during the day I'm a
mindless drone
unable to think
and totally alone.

at night thoughts
fill my head
unable to sleep
as I sit there in bed.

now i am afraid
to close my eyes at night
because my head and my heart
tend to f i g h t...