My bed was so much warmer with you here.
when your arms held me.
feelings too big for us to comprehend.
we were so much younger then.
Now
even as the candle lights another face.
utter another name
nails on another back.
no matter what I do
it's just not you.
and in the dark, i kiss with my eyes open.
shades of darkness used to differ.
but i realize now the difference
between looking into eyes and through them.
in so much as one can feel another person
i felt you.
know their bodies needs before they do
i knew you
i could move through you
as if your body was my own.
but my bed is colder now.
and so tonight
a skimpy shirt
fixed hair and eyes.
but somehow
you
adored me at my worst
and stood by me in my pain
when all the others would have run.
and down into the barest room
my body nude.
no make up and no jewelry.
just the flicker of this candle dancing.
things have changed. they often do.
i just never thought that things could change with you.
I long to cage you up the way we were
and keep that love
so unexpected.
so very pure.
but what a whimsical and vain desire
to cage a fire.
Some days I do not know how I go on.
It's like I only blinked my eyes
and you were gone.
